I write my best material in the minutes immediately before falling asleep. Unfortunately, those are also the minutes when I’ll never remember the genius I came up with.
There are a hundred excuses for why I haven’t written or posted lately. Including, but not limited to the reason above. In my current unemployment state, most of my creative energy is spent on cover letters and staying mentally sane while being home alone for days at a time, in between part-time jobs. Unrelated to my employment status, I’m trudging through a crisis of faith.
Recently, NPR published an article interviewing several adults in my generation who have chosen to leave behind their family religious traditions. As I was searching for that article, I found that this is a topic NPR frequently covers. It seems doubt and faith walk hand-in-hand. It also seems that I’m not alone in a crisis of faith.
I’m part of one of those “get a free book if you write a book review” clubs. The books are tailored towards conversations about theology, a topic I’m drawn to even when in crisis. After months of seeing new books released yet not being interested in any of them, the words “Rants to Revelations” caught my eye. Ranting is something I want to do on occasion, and the book description matched the intrigue of the title. I started reading Ogun Holder’s Rants to Revelations during Advent, a perfect time to dive into questions of faith.
Reading Rants to Revelations was timely for me, because of the previously mentioned crisis of faith. Holder writes a memoir of sorts, describing his faith journey through ups and downs of life. We all have them, he just wrote about his. I found encouragement and solidarity in his words.
Ogun Holder is a pastor (Reverend, priest?) in the Unity Church. Learning about Unity was new information for me, so I enjoyed learning bits and pieces of how this denomination influences his life and thought, and why he chose to be a leader in the Church. He struggles a little in his writing style, but I attribute that to this being his first book. In that same vein, Holder writes honestly about struggles with insecurity, and some of his insecurities bleed through the paragraphs on occasion. I especially enjoyed chapters when Holder clearly felt confident in his thoughts and words.
I would recommend this book to anyone looking for honest encouragement, and solidarity on a complicated faith journey. It’s full of difficult questions and is an excellent companion to those who appreciate self-reflection. If Holder writes a second book, I’d be interested in reading it.
Holder’s book of reflections (and the fantastic comics at the beginning of each chapter) didn’t take away my thousands of questions, but I feel less angst about asking them now. While I previously welcomed questions, I didn’t enjoy the fight that came with them. I’m embracing both the questions and the fight today, because I’ve found people to share both with.
You know, that’s the entire point of this blog: to find people to share life with. I’d argue that’s the point of living.